Howdy!  Long time no post, although I have been active my Facebook .  Life's been day-by-day here.  My mom died back in October, and although she and I didn't have the best relationship (technically my grief journey with her started in 2020...well a little before that), it's hitting me harder than I thought.  Although I've been grieving a little longer than others, this is the finality, you know?  No apologies, no mending, me--once again--having to find closure on my own.  Listening to certain songs over and over....  Watching A Christmas Story Christmas over and over almost every day.  That movie's message was something that I really needed last month, except there weren't any surprise gifts under the tree on Yule or Christmas day.   With cPTSD and ADHD, I've struggled with insomnia for most of my life, but with this grief, I've been experiencing it more frequently than normal. I've made the decision that I'm in no mental or spiri...

Nathan Jacen October 2011 Like many months, October is a month full of Awareness', such as Dyslexia and Breast Cancer. It's also Pregnancy and Child Loss Awareness Month, which I know in some places, mentioning that you've had a miscarriage can get you into serious legal trouble, which is absolute horseshit. Too many people continue to suffer in silence, afraid or perhaps not knowing that there are resources to help them grieve--yes, even non-Christian and secular resources (which were very few or non-existent in some places; in general having these resources are relatively new). This October will mark the 12th year of the miscarriage of my son, Nathan Jacen. Since 2015, every October 15th I've been participating in the Wave of Light . I don't even know if it still happens anymore, but just in case someone out there is still lighting their candle at 7pm, so do I. I'm also not sure who started this day, as I discovered it through Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep ...

Happy October it's *CINNAMON DAY! If you're not aware, every first day of the month, take a little bit of cinnamon in your hand and stand outside of your open door. Calm and ground yourself and charge that cinnamon...or awaken the power of cinnamon as it is a good money drawing spice. Say, "Money flows into my home. Money flows into our businesses, bank accounts, and wallets." Or something similar. 3,7, or 9 times. Odd numbers are powerful magik, you can also use any number that you associate with money, especially if it makes you happy. And/or visualize positive money flowing--money for rent, bills, food, and fun--through your door. When you're ready, blow the cinnamon in through your doorway. Keep your thoughts present and positive, with I am's, We are's and be careful of negative words, like cant, nevers, and nots. Witchcraft is part energy and psychology. Yes, psychology. Particularly a school of thought called neuroplasticity - reprogramming your brai...

Tis the time of the year when spirits get really active for some people (another super active time might be in May--for some of us it doesn't really stop). It's a great time to set up an Ancestral Altar, if you'd like to. Not everyone needs/wants to venerate their ancestors and that's fine, too. Plus, some ancestors don't deserve to be honored imo (maybe not forgotten--make notes of the shit person they were, so a descendant doesn't end up naming their kid after them). If you'd like to, you can leave it up all year if you want/can, too, or take it out on birth/death days or other special days. Our Ancestral Altar lives in a hutch that I inherited from one of my grandmothers. Inside you'll find photos, notes, letters, trinkets, fossils, maps, family trees, photo albums, money, pendulum, offerings, and prayers for Ancestors of Blood and Spirit, our pets, and strangers/acquaintances who've had an impact on us in one way or another (like David Bowie, Fre...

 Still around.  I've been adjusting to all of my kids starting school this year, and trying to find a new norm for my day.  I have two events coming up in October where Hearth Fox Oracle will be vending and reading at, so I've been working on building stock and on new products.  I also joined a Druid fellowship called Ar nDraiocht Fein in July, so I've been busy studying and working on essays and such...or I was doing all of that !  I hurt my knee in July and again in August, and gradually the pain has been getting worse.  I went to Urgent Care and to an orthopedic doctor, and my insurance says that I need to have a month of physical therapy before I can get an MRI to see what the problem is, or they won't pay for anything.  So although I'm pain that's getting worse everyday I have my appointment and I'm actually kind of looking forward to learn physical therapy techniques.  I'm taking anti-histamines that are working better, OTC pain killers, OTC...

 Witch Tip: Keep your nails--real or fake--to use them in self love, glamour, inner child, protection, and other intentional spells. June 17 , 2023 I got acrylics back in June and absolutely loved them. They made me and my Inner Child super happy, lovely, and mystical. Now as they fall off, I'm keeping them to be powdered for future spells. They've had weeks of charging. I also paid $50 for them, I'm getting money out of them (before I got them I struggled to justify spending that much on something like nails). Also if you or another are skilled, you can paint symbols, sigils, runes, etc onto your nails too (under or top), for various purposes...sex magiks, protections, luck, inspiration, creation, healing...whatever you need. Also enchant your nail polishes and gels, too!

 As soon as I grabbed my Frigg figure this morning, I got a psychic ping by Loki. I drew a card from His deck and got "You're the Shit and don't forget it!" Yeah, I'll take a compliment from a Deity!  But He wasn't done there. He also had me pull cards from the Fairy Tale Fortune by Liz Dean and Bev Speight. As I shuffled, I also saw the word "study". Since the Honeysweet ritual on Sunday, I've taken this week to rest from my usual seidr and Ar nDraiocht Fein studies and essay writing (I gotta write 11 of these for the Dedicant Path). I've been crocheting, actually. The acrylic nails that I got back in June kind of forced me to go on break from fiber arts and writing (they're just now starting to fall off [although I had taken a metal file to them last week because I need to type notes, damn it]. I'm collecting 'witch nails' to powder for future self-love, beauty, and inner child magics!).   Back to Loki, yes, I am plan...

I've been getting ready for a ritual that I'm hosting on Sunday called Honeysweet! Honeysweet is a month long celebration of the sweetness in our lives. Our joys, laughs, loves, gratitude, and even goals. Sweetnesses, like Bee's honey, that are to help nourish us through the darkness of winter...or anytime you find yourself in darkness. In years past, I've had attendees write their joys, and even griefs, on paper, and fold this paper into origami bees. Paper bees to be burned or unfolded when need be. This year I'm doing something a little different. Honeysweet Hives. This year, I finished crocheting myself a Honeysweet Hive, and I plan on making attendees boxes. Basically it's a Gratitude Jar . This can be a joyous time of the year...but also a heavy one, too. So reach into your Hives and pull out a photo, a note, an origami bee--something to help brighten your day. As someone with depression and SAD, Gratitude Jars have been literal life saviors in the past. I...

A couple of years ago, I got this angel statue from my mom for the holidays. When our relationship took a turn due to her addictions, I ripped the halo off of this angel and put her away. Then I put the angel on my healing altar with no conscious intention, although I think subconsciously praying for my mom. This year, my mom started making improvements to her life and we've both been working to mend our relationship. Today I took the angel off the healing altar, pried off the wings temporarily, looked up historic Norse dresses, and turned it into the Norse Goddess and Valkyrie of Healing, Eir. I do still have the wings, which I'm painting copper. I plan on gluing magnets on the wings and Eir, because sometimes the Valkyries appear winged to me. Yes, this is my Eir statue, goddess of medicine and a representation of healing between my mom and I. Mom, I love you, keep up the good work! Thank you and hail, Eir!

Firework-wise, it's been rough for me at night...except last night oddly enough. Last night was disturbingly peaceful, but I'm not complaining. Last night I took advantage of the break to scry with Odin. I ended up meeting with Freyja and Baldur instead and had great talks with Them, and how honesty and lessons don't always have to be brutal and harsh, as many of us have been taught. True, brutal and harsh do have their places, but often can be more harmful than healing. I've just drawn cards and runes because it's been a bit since I've done a Daily or Weekly Draw for Hearth Fox Oracle. Here we go! Baldur through The Illumination Tarot and Freyja through the Elder Futhark runes. As I shuffled, I specifically saw the word "eat" or "eating", meaning that this has to do with health. 10 of Spades, 9 of Spades, Ace of Spades, Kenaz, and Uruz. Your health is on your mind, keeping you awake, anxious, and possibly causing stress eating, affecting you...