Last night, I performed my first ritual with Virtual Fire Proto-Grove, ADF: Honeysweet, a ritual that honors Bee and Agricultural entities, as well as the sweetness in our lives.  What a perfect ritual to be my first, since it was my first personal ADF-style ritual that I performed when I joined ADF in July of 2023. For this ritual, a new-to-me Deity named Austeja--a Baltic Bee Goddess--offered to come through to give the omen.  "Coming through" meaning consensual possession.  To what level of that possession I didn't know, but I gave attendees a heads up.  Sometimes it's light, like a channeling, and other times it's full on heavy, like a complete take over. My rituals are unpredictable.  Sometimes the Gods come through and change the entire thing, because Their messages are more important than my plans.  And my rituals are fair game--I am Their Servant, Their Priestess, Their Conduit.  For the rite, instead of doing the Omen before the The Work...

I attended a Welsh Ritual on June 25th. This time, I was just an attendee. One of the other Druids was the Seer for this ritual. At the start of the ritual, I was feeling jittery and overstimulated. I stimmed, but the feeling wasn’t going away. Then I thought because some of the ritual was in Welsh, maybe I was picking up someone’s nervousness of attempting to speak the language. I shielded up and turned my camera off. The ritual started and the Seer started channeling Morfran and telling His story. I realized that what I was feeling was spiritual. I tried grabbing my pendulum and realized that I didn’t really have control over my hands. Someone was trying to come through, trying to possess me without my consent. If you’re new around here, I’ve been practicing consensual possession for a few years now, where I allow certain entities to enter my body and either partially or fully possess me to answer questions for people. This is something that I need to prepare for—before an...

 A Recent Trance Possession Experience. On Wednesday, April 9th, I attended a weekly ritual with my Grove. It was a Round Robin, where people can volunteer for parts. I felt Spirit pushing me to sign up for Omen. Divination is my favorite part of ritual and if no one else wants to do it, I volunteer (I really do encourage others to volunteer to practice, to get comfortable, and so on). …..But with me, given that I practice trance possession and automatic typing/writing, I never know how the omen’s going to go. Sometimes it’s normal, or as normal as it can be with me. Other times it’s just a channeling—me telling the audience what I’m hearing/seeing. Well, the last couple of times that I’ve done the omen, it’s been partial possession, which isn’t the same as channeling . It’s not. Possession is hardcore and can be dangerous shit. You have to know who the fuck you are—what’s you and what’s someone/thing else, and how to “come back”. It’s not the same as channeling. Stop w...

 Today is April 1st, 2025 , as I write. I’m actually about to attend an ADF Virtual Proto-Grove ritual honoring Loki on Zoom. I have a cup of peanuts for offerings, since the local crows around here love peanuts. To be fair, Loki wanted mead, but the closest that I have to that right now is honey and water. I wanted to share a gift that I got from my eldest for my 41st birthday a few days ago. It is the statue of Pythia, a Delphic High Priestess and Oracle, holding a laurel branch and a bowl of spring water. I love it. Her eyes look eerily realistic, too. Or perhaps its just me? I’ve been wanting this statue every since I saw her. For in-person readings, I usually have a little altar set up for Hermes, My Ancestors, Fox Guide, and which ever Goddess wants to come along. Usually its Eir, one of Frigg’s Handmaidens and one of Odinn’s Valkyries—A Goddess of Healing. Very appropriate for the oracular work that I do. But honestly, I wanted that Oracle statue to help connect m...

 An Old Journal Entry About My First Known Possessory Experience. July 9, 2020 A couple of years ago, I was having some issues with an aunt, who was making fun of my Dyslexia, saying that it wasn’t a real thing—it was all in my head (of course it’s all in my head, it’s a learning disability). I was on my Wordpress (From the Mud), working on a post, when I zoned out, and came back to a typed out message from Dionysus. It was a message to me, all about how I shouldn't take that crap, no matter how much I loved my aunt, before she was on Facebook. Better to know now...and cut her out of my life, too. (For some reason Wordpress was a favorite platform for Dionysus to do that. I believe it was my first automatic typing experience.) Despite this incredible experience--which had me exploring channeling and trance work in more depth--I was still on the fence. Mrs. Indecisive. I thought He was being too harsh. She was my aunt after all (although shortly before this, I had cut her brother--...

 (Posted on my Substack .) Originally posted to my Blogpost Book of Mirrors . I attended a monthly trance study with a FB group called Mud Lotus Project. I pulled from  Tarot of the Divine  first, which for me is a deck claimed by Kuan Yin. Again for me, often Kuan Yin and Green Tara are one entity and sometimes separate. Kuan Yin/Green Tara, what is your message? “ Listen .” Judgement  – Improvement The Sun  – Accomplishment, joy, luck, vitality (big pendulum swing on this one). We got into a posture--a posture that Green Tara is often depicted in, and we chanted her mantra 6 times. "OM TARE TUTARE TURE SVAHA" 6 times. Then the host began to rattle, and we all went on a little journey. I was greeted by a Bee Nymph—a honey bee. She stung me, filled me with venom to cleanse. Our Bee Sisters also stung me, purifying me. I opened my arms, accepting their stings. I woke up on a white flower. Shiva picked me up and put me across His shoulders. He dance around a fire,...