(Posted on my Substack.)
Originally posted to my Blogpost Book of Mirrors.
I attended a monthly trance study with a FB group called Mud Lotus Project.
I pulled from Tarot of the Divine first, which for me is a deck claimed by Kuan Yin. Again for me, often Kuan Yin and Green Tara are one entity and sometimes separate.
Kuan Yin/Green Tara, what is your message? “Listen.”
Judgement – Improvement
The Sun – Accomplishment, joy, luck, vitality (big pendulum swing on this one).
We got into a posture--a posture that Green Tara is often depicted in, and we chanted her mantra 6 times.
"OM TARE TUTARE TURE SVAHA"
6 times.
Then the host began to rattle, and we all went on a little journey.
I was greeted by a Bee Nymph—a honey bee. She stung me, filled me with venom to cleanse. Our Bee Sisters also stung me, purifying me. I opened my arms, accepting their stings.
I woke up on a white flower. Shiva picked me up and put me across His shoulders. He dance around a fire, and then took me to a red rock that was a woman’s vulva, with fluids pouring from her vagina. I drank, my body cleansed from the venom and neutralized poisons.
As I drank, I became pregnant. I was in a cave of red clay. I gave birth to Me. That Me kissed me and inhaled me. I was in the new me in the new body. The old me turned to ash.
I turned and walked through a red clay cave to an opening of shallow water. There was a young damaged lotus struggling to get to the surface and was drowning. I heard “Mother Wound – parts that can never be healed. Never be forgiven. Only Self Forgiveness to move forward.”
Green Tara behind me. We walked down a path that overlooked a pond filled with white glowing lotus flowers. She told me to pick one. I thought of the wounded one far up the path. She said it was admirable, but a giant step back. Told me to be present now. I was here now.
“Pick one.”
Going back meant repeating steps and old patterns. That I needed to be present and plan for my future now.
I understood. I kneeled on the bank and breathed. I picked a glowing lotus that drew me.
“Eat it.”
I did. It filled me with white light that filled every fiber of my being, wing tip to wing tip, top to bottom.
I voiced my concerns about being an ethical and affective Priestess to Her, worried about losing myself in ego and fears. That I wanted to be confident and humble. She said that I am. That I shouldn’t worry about that. That’s not who I am.
She asked if I wanted her to remove my fear. I said no because healthy fear keeps us safe, but toxic fear keeps us from living. I didn’t want to be controlled by my toxic fears anymore. If I can't learn to navigate my toxic fear, how could I help others?
She said that I was still growing. I am a different person now. Give it time and patience. Give it time to settle and integrate. Rest and study.
We talked about the recent shooting. I asked Her to give the families justice. To drive people for change so things like this stop. I cried.
She said things were already in motion, but sacrifices must be made. The change is happening. People are driven. The Gods are working through us.
I asked her what I should do? “Mentor. You are a Torch Bearer. Your job is to find the lost and guide them to the light. Inspire them to do what you’re not able to. Guide them, release them, and return to the darkness to find another. This is your path. Rest now. Grieve, rest, and study."
When it was time for me to go, one of my Sister Bee Nymphs came. First, Green Tara pulled a stinger from my back and crushed it down and handed me the dust. I squeezed it and it became a blade. I sheathed it over my womb. Jumped onto my Bee Sister’s back, and came out of it.
~ Priestess Foxlyn
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