An Old Journal Entry About My First Known Possessory Experience. July 9, 2020 A couple of years ago, I was having some issues with an aunt, who was making fun of my Dyslexia, saying that it wasn’t a real thing—it was all in my head (of course it’s all in my head, it’s a learning disability). I was on my Wordpress (From the Mud), working on a post, when I zoned out, and came back to a typed out message from Dionysus. It was a message to me, all about how I shouldn't take that crap, no matter how much I loved my aunt, before she was on Facebook. Better to know now...and cut her out of my life, too. (For some reason Wordpress was a favorite platform for Dionysus to do that. I believe it was my first automatic typing experience.) Despite this incredible experience--which had me exploring channeling and trance work in more depth--I was still on the fence. Mrs. Indecisive. I thought He was being too harsh. She was my aunt after all (although shortly before this, I had cut her brother--...

 (Originally posted on my Substack .  Also yall don't have to subscribe to my SS, you can simply Follow, too, if you'd like.) Today is actually March 1st as I type this. I’ve got two things on my mind: my mom and bees. The only thing those two have in common is that bees are psychopomps in some cultures—entities that carry the dead to the Spirit World. And my mom is dead. She died on October 14, 2023. We had a complicated relationship. She was an emotionally abusive alcoholic and I wasn’t an enabler. All the family wanted was for her to get sober, and all she wanted was death. When I learned of her death, I felt immense relief and a weight lifted from me. The grief and healing process have been longer—going on before her death, honestly. I just put her memorial photos in an album yesterday. It felt good to put all of that information into a physical book. I sat there, looked and read, and remembered. How I reacted. How the kids reacted. Dealing with family and strangers. Some ...

 About a week ago, I wrote a post that was supposed to be about my relationship with Dionysus and Ariadne, but turned into Myth Gods and Real Gods . When I was a teen I had a handful of deities: Sister Moon, Hestia, Vesta, Artemis, Hephaestus, and Anubis. Over the years, that number would change, especially as I started working more with animal spirits. Then as I went through a phase of dark depression and rejected being an artist—I listened to what asshole students and teachers of Wright State University’s art department, who said that I was mediocre and talentless and had no place in that major. I pushed Hephaestus away, and the others (although Hestia-Vesta and Sister Moon stayed). (My drawing teacher, Penny, brought me back by saying that I had the potential, but I was standing in my way). In 2014, I started working with the Roman Ceres. During one of my full moon rites with Her, Sister Moon, and the Land Spirits, Dionysus showed up. He stayed…and with Him came a flood of...

 Content Warning: Eating Disorders, Abuse, Addictions, Body Shaming, Suicide Good Sunday, yall.  Today I've decided to show off my Healing Altar, or my Arete Altar.  Arete is a Hellenic Pillar meaning to be your best self, which is the focus of my healing magiks and shadow work.  Heal the mind, heal the body, heal the spirit.  Heal, become empowered, strong, kind, and confident.  Learn what it means to be better and how to be my best self. This altar has different entities and energies represented on it, such as: Green Tara the Obstacle Remover Kuan Yin the Merciful and Compassionate Shiva a God of Destruction Eir, Norse Goddess of Healing and one of Frigg's Maidens and Odinn's Valkyries Mother Mary Mary Magdalene Goat for Dionysus, a God of Moderation, Addictions, and a Liberator A Fox for Loki the Shapeshifter and Chaos Navigator  Hekate, Protector of Children and Goddess of Witches Medusa, Dark Feminine Energies, Avenger of the Sexually Abused Purif...

 TW/CW: My LGBTQ+ Pride Story This is a Pansexual Pride Blanket that I started on July 28, 2019 and finished on March 10, 2023. It wasn't supposed to take me that long. I flew through the pink, but when I got to the yellow, I slowed down significantly, because it's just one solid block of color and it bored my ADHD. Because of that, the yellow is only 2 skeins. Overall, the blanket is made from 9-10 skeins of yarn, and is approx. 80x40 inches. It's not straight (HA!) by any means, and it tapers, but it's a favorite blanket around the house, one that I specifically pull out of storage for the month of June. I'm not sure if it is finished. Originally I wanted to put a Bisexual Flag border around it, but I wasn't able to afford the yarns for that part at the time. I still may make a bi pride flag blanket. Then I thought that if I do that, then I join them together as one massive pride blanket! Why bi, when I have a pan flag blanket? Well, because I used ...