A month into the Pre-Clergy Program and last week, I finally got the motivation to start reading, studying, and doing the writings! I was hoping to get started right away, but then I got hit with ADHD and a little bit of Imposter Syndrome. That Imposter is just shadow work to explore. I explored it. My Imposter asked what did I have to offer to ADF or to anyone else? I was a poor speaker and a college drop out, who the hell could I help as a clergy person? Good questions, honestly. What are my strengths? What are my weaknesses? What could be improved? I love writing rituals and I love performing them for my community. I love teaching folks about the Kindreds as I know and interact with Them, and passing on Their messages. I also know that my ritual writing needs a lot of work. I attend others rituals and pay attention and learn. I've taken writing workshops, ritual writing workshops, and I've read books....
Sometime this morning, I woke up from an intense dream--second one this week and with the same theme! Except this time, I woke up in a panic--heart pounding, quick breathing. But the dream wasn't nightmarish--not really. I went to one of my favorite local spiritual shops called The Magical Druid to see my local grove--Three Cranes. Then suddenly I wasn't feeling well. It was like I was being possessed without my consent and I couldn't remove the entity. I couldn't because it wasn't a stranger coming into me from the outside, but an entity within me, emerging . Maybe I've been watching too many Alien movies lately? Prometheus and Covenant are good, though! An entity not laid inside of me by a devious synth, an airborne virus, or a face-r*ping alien. Something part of me. Something that IS me. At one point, one of the cranes--a warm, plus sized woman with shoulder length brown hair (not Arch Druid Rev. ...