Today I sat outside in the sun. For about a month, I've been working on turning my pastey white skin tan...or trying to. Once the lake water is warm enough to swim, I'm going to be spending a lot of time there, and I'd rather not turn into a lobster. Anywho, when I do go outside, I greet Sunna, set an intention, set a timer on my phone, and either meditate/trance or read. Today I chose to read: Edda by Snorri Sturluson. Not my favorite author, but an important one to read (I'd rather be reading Dr Jackson Crawford's translations of Snorri). I'm familiar with the stories and mythology, as it would seem that every author who writes about Norse Paganism and Magik has to talk about the mythology. Can't have one without the other, which is kind of annoying to be honest. But, hey, makes a book go faster when you're skipping parts that you've read multiple times.
As I sat there, soaking up Sunna's rays with the intention of healing and protection, I read Gylfaginning. A story about a King talking to three other Kings about the Aesir and their world and beings in it.
When the three Kings got to the story about the "Evil Loki--Norse Satan Loki"--and His three terrible children. How the Aesir heard about the prophecy and thus kidnapped and treated Hel, Jörmungandr, and Fenrir like trash out of fear of them potentially bringing on Ragnarök.
As a Seer myself, I've been told things by the Gods that I'm not allowed to speak about. Like the All-Knowing Frigg, you have to be quiet and let things play out. Trust the process.
As a Diviner, I also know that what I'm shown isn't set in stone. I'm only being shown one path, one potential result.
Potential.
Choices.
Did those Aesir ever think that maybe They're the reason why Loki and Angrboda's Children brought on Ragnarök because of the fear, the hate, and the way they were treated? Their harsh panicked reactive reactions? Their arrogance...their fears...
Maybe the prophecy should'n've been shared? (I honestly don't remember how they learned it--was it in the Voluspa?)
Maybe the Aesir should'n've acted and tried to prevent in the ways They did. Didn't realize that they in fact weren't the heroes, but the tools of destruction.
Perhaps this is the lesson of that story? Most myths teach lessons.
Of course, I'm not saying that those Three were right either. Hurt people don't always hurt people. You have a choice. You can either become an abusive monster, or you can become a healed survivor.
But the Aesir weren't right either. They made a choice to become monsters. They were the tools that brought about Ragnarök, but no one ever includes Them in that blame, do they?
A lesson for diviners and seers, too. Things to ponder. Things to meditate on, reflect on.
Since I've been practicing Being Present this past year, I haven't really done too much divination for myself. Every once in a while Someone will come with the message, but I don't really feel the need to seek weekly or monthly messages like I used to. I've been mostly calm and at peace. Just trusting the process and going with the flow of life--I've been taught by my Kindred how to do those things, and I'm flowin, using my oars when I need to. Just remembering my lessons, my virtues, my pillars, ethics and such. Focusing on all aspects of my health. Doing my spiritual shit. My studies and all that jazz.
Perhaps I'll meditate a little more on this story and how it may relate to, not just my life, but also my seer work with the community. Don't get me wrong, I love working with the community--it was was one of the huge reasons why I decided to develop my psychic abilities. I wanted to help people. When I have sessions with clients, I always let them know that the result is A result. It's not a set result.
But then I've come across conflict in my work--like when someone wants divine blessings for their weddings, but the Gods don't show up. Which means that their marriage is going to be a failure, and me running into the ethical problem of "Do I tell them? Will they listen?" A lot of times, people don't listen. Then the "prophecy" comes true. Ethical dilemmas. And other things that I've run into with similar situations. I've been in sessions where the Gods have told me things about a client that I can't share with the client. Because maybe the client will react like the Aesir and Loki's Three Children? I dunno.
The Kindred have let me know that I serve Them first. I am THEIR Conduit.
As of now, I'm not going to pack up the shop and stop offering readings because of this story or interpretation.
Thanks for the support!
Face to the Sun.
Trust in Joy.
Follow the Foxes and the Bees...
- Priestess Foxlyn