I've had lots of thoughts on my mind this week...well, for a while, but moreso this week, now that I'm finally enrolled in the PCP. Thoughts concerning the future of Hearth Fox Oracle. I started this psychic business because I wanted to use my abilities and skills to help people. I never wanted to become a Big Name Pagan or to be famous. I did want to have regular income doing something that I love, under my own ethics and not a corporations.
I researched, I observed, I studied, I networked. I challenged myself. I did psychic fairs, expos, public, group, and private sessions. I branched out by selling my artwork and handmade divination tools. I helped people with their spiritual problems and spirit problems. I've blessed homes, banished nasty entities, taught folks about paganism, witchcraft, and psychicism; and a lot more. I've literally saved lives, too.
But I'm not great at selling myself. I don't want to use my body to gain customers. I hate trends and trying to keep up with what's popular--I never wanted to be cookie-cutter and do what everyone else is doing. I don't badmouth other psychics to get business. I don't involve myself in drama, because I don't want that kind of attention or support. I don't want some kind of cult or to be worshipped or other kinds of unhealthy and parasocial relationships. I've had three stalkers (one who tried to kill me and another who tried to hurt me), I don't need anymore.
I have strong morals and ethics, which don't do well for business, especially online. I'm not cut throat. I'm very community oriented--like if I can't help you, I'm more than happy to direct you or encourage you to seek someone who can. I want a community that works together, not competes and fights one another. Not good for business--but its good for me and for those people who're in need.
I'm not that great at business. Is what it is. But I'm great at being a psychic, a witch, an oracle, and a priestess. I'm a helper. I'm good at that. I believe that pagan priesthood is where I'm supposed to be. It's not glamorous, but I'm not chasing fame or popularity. I don't care about those things. I care about being the best, ethical, and effient priestess that I can be for my corporeal and incorporeal communities. For me and my kin.
Now that I'm in ADF's PCP, I'm one step closer to my goal of being part of a community where I don't have to compete with anyone. There's a lot more than goes into being an ADF Priest than just helping people, of course. I'm sure there's still office politics within this priesthood. Dealing with cliques and people who've let their title go to their heads--who're clergy for the wrong reasons--that shit's everywhere. No where's a utopia. All of that aside, I'm really looking forward to this experience and to my future...even if that future doesn't have a Hearth Fox Oracle anymore.
This year I'm going to focus more on my clergy and death doula training than on my business. I'm still not sure if I'm going to do any events. As of right now, I'm still offering pay-what-you-can psychic readings.
Thanks for all of the support!
Face to the Sun.
Trust in Joy.
Follow the Foxes and the Bees...
- Priestess Foxlyn