The other day I posted about Imposter Syndrome and how I try to handle mine. Yesterday I came across the Imposter Syndrome Spread by Moon Mama Oracle on Instagram. Why not give it a go, see what my guides have to say about it? Also if you have instagram or practice divination, go check out moonmamaoracle, they have a ton of great spreads!
For this reading my guides have selected runes, specifically Witch Runes. Of course they'd pick a harder tool for this spread. Harder in that cards typically have more information, whereas the runes can be more intuitive. What a way of challenging the Imposter Wound?
1) My Energy: Crossroads, a rune of decision making. Over the years, this rune has come to mean Self Discipline.
2) Why do I feel like an Imposter? "Childhood" "Past" "Old self" Lotus, a rune of the healer and of healing. "You are untangling. Messy business of pain and confidence. Of naysayers and cheerers. Brain healing and growing. Too long of being told what to do, what you can and shouldn't do for others fears and traumas--other's projections of their own failures and abilities and brainwashing. Their can'ts are not yours. Have the discipline to believe in yourself, fuck whomever disagrees and tries to tear you down."
3) Why am I not? "Because you are Kristy. Stubborn. Determined. Open. Motivated. More than Aries Self not liking to be told what to believe and what to do. Spiritual Mad Scientist, as you've called yourself. Curious. Self challenging. We know it doesn't always feel like that, but take a serious look at your past and see all of the times that you tried despite being told others fears and failures and angers." I've drawn Crossed Spears, a rune of conflict. A conflict of them and me. All of those people who said that I'm stupid, mediocre, talentless, weak, fearful, weird, crazy--can't. Vs that part of me that doesn't like to be controlled by others fears and limited boxes.
4) How do people around me view my skills? "Depends, some are afraid, uncertain. Others are rooting for you. A few, both. Whether we're talking about your psychic talents or artists skills." "Needs work." "Surrounded yourself with love and support--but not echochamb--"
An older voice interrupts, "Ha, if she did that, all she'd hear is criticism! She's done better than that--not intentionally, of course. Remember for the longest time she didn't think much of herself. Learned to love herself by those who genuinely love and care for her. Plus we might've had a hand in that."
Another voice, "Jealous of your courage and your skills. They may not be vocal about it, though."
Another, "Or their words come out wrong....many of your family work in areas that are socially accepted, praised, and worshipped even. Whereas you forged your own path, despite how society tends to view it, what our family thinks. Some wish they had strength, but it may come out wrong."
I've drawn the Sun, the rune of progress and success. "Always seeking to improve. Always researching, taking classes, courses, workshops, and independent studies. Reflecting. Healing. You may not be an instant American Dream success, but in time, with patience, your business and service will grow. Dreams and goals will be achieved in this lifetime. You already do in many ways. Just ask those whom you've helped--those whom you've positively impacted and helped to make their lives better, or at least helped to clear the foundation so that they may plant the seeds and nurture their gardens. Yes, you have helped many, some you know, others you don't."
5) What will shine bright, despite my fears, and help me grow? "Determination" The Wing, the rune of communication. "Community. Friendship. Loved ones. Self love." "Communicating and not calming up or listening to the naysayers and staying silent for their comfort." "Even for your introverted little self," a chuckle. "Recharge and communicate some more."
6) Love and Advice from my Ancestors. "Keep being you." "Refer to the above." "If you need more proof of your skills, come back and read this post." "Remember those whom you've helped. The community you're helping to build. New friendship people have made because of those events and gathering. The literal lives that you've saved by being present and brave--that is nothing to take lightly. You are braver and stronger than you'll ever know or accept about yourself. We stand behind and all around, guiding, protecting, and rooting for you and your line."
I've drawn the Flower. The rune of Love.
Thank you Ancestors for your kind words.
If you are struggling with Imposter Syndrome, maybe give this spread a try? If you don't practice, seek someone who does or someone who can help you work through your issues. It can help to see those inner CANT voices as the Imposter trying to stop you.
Thank you for your support!
- Priestess Wren
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