Today marks the 2 year anniversary of my mom's death. Weird, feels longer than that. I guess, because of our rough relationship, it has been longer. Grief and Healing aren't linear. They are a spiral, a tangle, a mess of emotions and memories. Sometimes I'm fine, sometimes I'm not, sometimes I'm at peace. Sometimes I'm mad, sometimes I'm understanding. Over the last few weeks I've allowed myself to be angry. I've explored that anger a little bit. I've allowed myself to be numb, too. I've allowed that numb to make me rest. A grey bubble of protection. Silence. I've allowed myself to be cradled by the silence. Hagalaz. Thurisaz. Protective shelters from the storm. Not a bad storm. Just a storm. Neutral energies. Increase of spirit activities. Anticipation. Fears. Expectations. Just storms moving through. Isaz. Stop. Take shelter. Rest. ...
Not that its needed, but I just wanted to say that I'm not ignoring what's happening in our country. I stay informed through trusted sources. I just want this space to be politics free...for the most part. Minus times when I feel compelled to post messages or spells or whatever. It's not good for mental health to be in a constant state of fear, anger, and sadness. As my deities have told me time and time again, I need to focus on myself, my loved ones, and local for now. I need to rest, heal, and study--I need to get stronger, so that when the time is right, I'm ready. It's not that I don't care, I do. And months ago, when the Gods told me to not do anything, I didn't want to listen. But there are many people who are fighting and helping. People with far more knowledge, experience, energy, resources, and connections than I have. People from all walks of life. They are fighting against the fascists, despite wha...